“Inside you there’s an artist you don’t know…say yes quickly, if you know, if you’ve known it from before the beginning of the universe.” – Rumi
Sometimes a journey is an outward adventure. Other times it is an inward one. My journey as a writer may have begun when I wrote my first novel at the age of nine, but it received new life upon arriving in France for a writing school and reflection into myself. The date alone was auspicious: 10-10-10. I should have known that it would be powerful.
“And you? When will you begin that long journey into yourself?” – Rumi
I lacked confidence in my writing ability, in spite of being encouraged to join a creative writing club by a college professor. I was in the business field – not the arts – following the well meaning advice of counselors and relatives. There was no one encouraging me to give writing any serious consideration. I assumed they knew best.
“Sometimes you hear a voice through the door calling you…this turning toward what you deeply love saves you.” – Rumi
But there came a time when the tribal drum beat called out louder than ever before. The time to find out if I had any talent had arrived. I jumped off the comfortable cliff of the status quo and leapt alone onto a plane headed for France toward a destiny shared with other students and a teacher I believed in although I had only shared conversations with her through the internet.
“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.” – Henry David Thoreau
I didn’t even belong to any social media groups before preparing for this class. My computer was a ten year old relic with no ethernet port. My internet service was dial up. The largest portion of my writing consisted of journaling in long hand. I had written a few novels – one was quite horrible but allowed me to get the kinks out and the other had a few issues but I rather liked it. It was my secret hobby; nobody, not even my husband, knew.
“Remembering you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.” – Steve Jobs
Even in class I had trouble handing my work over to the instructor – writer, professor, editor Janet Hulstrand. I feared that she would suggest a new hobby – knitting maybe. But I had to know if there was a shred of salvageable material in my work. I had to know if I had any talent. And I was prepared to hear that I didn’t. It is always easier to hear the bad as opposed to the good. I would have calmly let it go and enjoyed the beauty of the French countryside. When she told me that it was good and that it really needed little in the way of editing, I actually cried. It was supreme validation.
“Always do what you are afraid to do.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson
The other students were immensely supportive and the villagers of Essoyes referred to us as ‘Janet’s writers’. Perhaps I needed to hear myself referred to as a writer in order to believe it in the deepest cells of my body. I probably needed to hear it about six thousand times.
“Our truest life is when we are in dreams awake.” – Henry David Thoreau
But I remember the day near the end of the week, walking through the golden vineyard behind the Hotel des Canotiers – the very field Renoir used as inspiration for ‘Path through the tall Grasses’ – with a few of the other students. I could see the writer in them and suddenly could feel it in myself. A voice whispered inside of my own head telling me that I too was a writer.
“This is who I am – a writer!” – my inner voice
The safe shelter Janet provided allowed a metamorphosis of my beliefs. Another writer suggested that I purchase business cards to remind me of it. Being part of a group mirrored my reflection from them – the women I respected. Once I believed, the path was marked for me by Janet.
“What you seek, is seeking you.” – Rumi
She honed in on my weaknesses and helped me develop them into strengths. She made suggestions – which I listened to – and allowed ideas to flourish. One day she even stopped the class to give me time to jot down another plot for a story line.
“Travel brings power and love back into your life.” – Rumi
I returned home full of energy, excitement, and determination and didn’t want to lose it. So I started a blog just to get use to the idea of having my work seen on a daily basis and learning that making mistakes was alright. There is always a way to edit and correct. Constructive criticism has helped me grow. I welcome it.
“Let the beauty of what you love be what you do.” – Rumi
Then I sent a short story entitled –What is it About Paris? – to an online publishing house and have just been notified that it tied for runner up travel story of the year.
“You miss one hundred percent of the shots you don’t take.” – Wayne Gretzky
With each success I gained a little more courage. I sent a travel article to Bonjour Paris about Essoyes and the newly created Renoir Museum which they published.
“Courage is grace under pressure.” – Ernest Hemingway
And then I entered a contest through Rate My Study Abroad, although I wasn’t enrolled through a university. It received an honorable mention and I was – and still am – over the moon about that one.
“One isn’t necessarily born with courage, but one is born with potential.” – Maya Angelo
The following spring I attended a writer’s conference in Asheville, North Carolina, where I met my current publisher, The Wild Rose Press, and my editor, Maggie Johnson.
With their encouragement, I submitted my first novel, Acquisition.
It was released on November 7, 2014.
It was followed by The Haunting of William Gray in November 2015.
Inspired by travels in the low country of South Carolina, it offers the twists that are indicative of its setting in Georgetown and Charleston.
Part historical, part paranormal, a little gothic, and very intriguing, The Haunting of William Gray will–hopefully–have readers believing in ghosts.
As a special treat, my holiday novel, Herald Angels, will be released just in time for Christmas on 12-09-2016.
Whether you prefer simple country celebrations, or flashy and bright Christmas in the city, this is the novel for you.
Rural Virginia competes with Manhattan for the spotlight as the main character struggles with her past, future, and various family issues, most notably those concerning her sister.
If you are looking for a feel-good-Christmas novel, this is the one for you.
Behind the Mask, my fourth novel with The Wild Rose Press, will launch March 24, 2017!
Inspired by Venice, Italy, it juxtaposes the watery city with an American in trouble, a murderer on the loose, and an Italian doctor intent on saving her.
Romance meets intrigue in this international suspense.
And my network of talented writers is expanding.
A Young Adult novel I had been toying with for years was awarded a two week residency at Noepe Center for Literary Arts on Martha’s Vineyard. Living with likeminded authors from various places around the United States gave me new insights and perspectives, and a lot of cool friends.
But it didn’t end there. I accepted the invitation by the director of Noepe, who also leads a Monastic Studies Retreat in Italy, to join this past year’s journey. It was a trip not only to a previously unknown-to-me medieval village — Orvieto — but also into some unearthed territory within myself.
“A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” — Lao Tzu
The Young Adult novel I finished during my second residency at Noepe, has now been awarded one of ten spots in University of Iowa’s Novel Intensive Workshop. I’ll be updating with pictures and further details of its progress later this summer.
My single step began with the Essoyes School . It gave me permission to follow my dreams, which changed my life. There is no going back behind a dark curtain of self-doubt.
“What will you do with your one wild and precious life?” – Mary Oliver